I`m going through changes
I`m going through changes

Lately I really, feel like I`m rolling for like Philly
I feel like I`m losing control of myself, I sincerely
I apologize if all that I sound like, is I`m complaining
But life keeps on complicating and I`m debating

On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls
Can see I`m grievin`, I try and hide it
But I can`t, why do I act like I`m all high and mighty
When inside, I`m dying, I am finally realizing I need help
I can`t do it by myself

Too weak, 2 weeks I`ve been having ups and downs
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying
Around with the idea of ending the s**t right here

I`m hatin` my reflection, I walk around the house tryin` to fight mirrors
I can`t stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a f**k, only thing I fear is Hailie
I`m afraid if I close my eyes I might see her, s**t

I`m going through changes
I`m going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin` at noon
Yeah, dad`s in a bad mood, he`s always snappin` at you
Marshall, what happened at you? Can`t stop with these pills
And you`ve fallen off with your skills
And your own fans are laughin` at you

It become a problem you`re too pussy to tackle, get up
Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this s**t handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bust

Nah, it ain`t like Doody to do that
He wouldn`t f**kin` shoot at, nobody, he fights first
But dwellin` on it only makes the night worse
Now I`m poppin Vic`s, perks and Methadone pills
Yeah `em, tight verse, you killed it

F**kin` drug dealers hang around me like yes man
And they gon` do whatever I says when, I says it
It`s in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my f**kin` best friend, so f**k it, I guess then

I`m going through changes
I`m going through changes
(Don`t know what I`m going through)
(But I just keep on going through changes)

My friends just can`t understand this new me
That`s understandable man but just think how bananas
You`d be, you`d be an animal too, if you were trapped
In this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody`s lookin` at you, what you want me to do?

I`m startin` to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame startin` to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theater, watchin` the same damn DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour, he was still alive

And it hurt sore, fast forward, sleepin` pills`ll make me feel alright
And if I`m still awake in the middle of the night
I just take a couple more, yeah, you`re motherf**kin` right
I ain`t slowin` down for no one, I am almost homeward bound

Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, don`t look now
Daddy, don`t you die on me, daddy, better hold your ground
F**k, don`t I know the sound of that voice
Yeah, baby, hold me down

I`m going through changes
I`m going through changes
(Don`t know what I`m going through)
(But I just keep on going through changes)

Wake up in the hospital
Full of tubes, plus somehow I`m pullin` through
Swear when I come back I`ma be bulletproof
I`ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few
Facts `cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth

S**t it just hit me that what if I would notta made it through?
I think about the things I would never got to say to you
I`d never get to make it right, so here`s what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too

I still love your mother, that`ll never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it
But I swear on everything, I`d do anything for her on any day

There are just too many things to explain, when it rains
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn`t any pain
But I can`t pretend there ain`t, I ain`t placin` any blame
I ain`t pointin` fingers, heaven knows there never been a saint

I know it just feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost hate to say
I miss you self consciously, wish it didn`t end this way
But I just had to get away, don`t know why
I don`t know what else to say, I guess I`m

I`m going through changes
I`m going through changes
(Don`t know what I`m going through)
(But I just keep on going through changes)