Lately I`ve been going through more bulls**t, than a bull fighter
So when I say my praises to God, one verse is like a full choir
My every thought is pain, strain and stressing me to death
Everyday is like a rehearsal, that`s prepping me for death

I think I`m ready because this world ain`t no friend of mine
Only thing I qualify for, is murder and Penitentiary time
Y`all should of shot me, in the Jimmy instead
But I guess they was feeling each other, to get head in the bed

Here I am, first born torn between heaven and hell
I tell my people so no to dope but I let it sell
Need to practice my preaching, calling the kettle black
I know I`m on pot before or not, I gotta peddle crack

Ain`t nobody got my back, except the laws when they on it
So I be going for broke, demolishing my opponents
Leaving no traces just blood on faces, believe that
HK I`ma squeeze that, you won`t even want be back

I got through so much, so I try to stay f**ked up
Because, when I`m sober I can`t maintain
Even though I do my best, the only thing I earn is stress
So I, spend most of my days chilling with Mary Jane

I can`t focus, I`m losing my mind real fast
Dreaming and fending for the day, I could make some real cash
Dropping album after album, platinum song after song
But it`s like I ain`t did nothing, `cause the lights ain`t on

How can I win, it`s like everything I do is a motherf**king sin
It got a ni**a, fending to see my end
All of my friends are fake, they come around when I`m spending cash
But when I`m broke they out the do`, with wheels spinning fast

Lonely, daily dodging the devil but he on me
Telling my people f**k him, `cause he be working
Through my homies burning bridges and I don`t give a f**k
Remember y`all laughing at me, when I couldn`t get a buck

It`s all gravy baby, I got bigger hurdles
I`m trying to jump over my residence
And my vehicle, is something I dump over
And it might not be much but it`s all I got
So when I paint it, promethium is all I pop

I got through so much, so I try to stay f**ked up
Because, when I`m sober I can`t maintain
Even though I do my best, the only thing I earn is stress
So I, spend most of my days chilling with Mary Jane

I`m on pretrial now and I can`t smoke no weed
`Cause if I catch a dirty, I`m facing T I M E
My first time ever sober, it`s f**king with my brain
Got a ni**a with an attitude, I can`t maintain

If you cross me I`ll bring it to you hard, not softly
Living like I`m invincible, one day it`s gonna cost me
When it`s time to pay up, and I lay up in a grave
Bury me with a fifty sack, and a motherf**king 12 gage

Hey, no love in my heart
`Cause my homies was phony, straight from the motherf**king start
Why couldn`t I get a ride, if I ain`t have no weed, these motherf**kers
Ain`t my people, they gotta be strangers up a reverend breed

So I bless the streets, with my Smith-n-Wesson
And if you beefing with me ni**a, better get your weapon
You better pray that I`m codeine and I`m just tripping
But I won`t let you add up to my problems, I will leave you tripping

I got through so much, so I try to stay f**ked up
Because, when I`m sober I can`t maintain
Even though I do my best, the only thing I earn is stress
So I, spend most of my days chilling with Mary Jane